My name is Rabecka, Iâ€™m here to tell you my surrogate story. Itâ€™s unlike many others, I wasnâ€™t in a hard spot for cash, nor did I know the parents prior to our journey. I just simply wanted to feel like a better human. There were struggles and there were hurdles to jump over, but the whole process went by faster than Iâ€™d ever imagined and in the end, all of the struggles were well worth it. I began my journey in December of 2016 and gave birth to a beautiful Chinese baby boy April of 2018. He was 5 weeks and 5 days early, but nothing short of amazing. The amount of love and joy that overcame me after I had that little boy was unimaginable, I felt so many feelings that I had never experienced. Even though the labor was really hard, I wouldnâ€™t have had it any other way. I learned a lot from myself and many others along my journey, I made lifelong friends and some new family members. My intended parents and I bonded instantly. I learned a long the way that some people find surrogacy to be â€œweird, ungodly, stupid and even cult like.â€ But I also learned that some people find it to be â€œrewarding, heartwarming, beautiful, and selfless.â€ I soaked up the good and ignored the bad as much as I could because I knew why I chose to be the garden for that little boy and I wasnâ€™t budging. Leaving the hospital was bittersweet, I didnâ€™t feel like my surro-babe was mine to keep, but my body didnâ€™t understand why we werenâ€™t taking a baby home when we worked so hard to grow one. It took me about 2 months to feel emotionally normal again, but those were some really hard times. I had baby blues like you wouldnâ€™t believe but I really think that they were so strong because I didnâ€™t have the normal baby distractions you would typically have after giving birth. All in all, my surrogate journey was one of the best things I believe Iâ€™ll ever do in my lifetime, I wouldnâ€™t trade it for the world. My heart is full and my soul is at peace.